Salme's Blog

Fantasies.. only Fantasies…

starbride — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 08:51:19 +0000

Oohhh!!! Seems real happyness can excist only in fantasies… only in fantasies we creat.. how far we can go on this path…

Her: do you have many lovers here?

Him: only you

Him: i stay to one

Him: you?

Him: you have others in here??

Her: no…

Him: you want me??

Him: I want you

Her: i had a friend..

Her: before you..

Her: BF

Him: you told

Her: i want you honey..

Her: i don\’t know where this path goes tho…

Her: i want you very much

Him: dunno either

Him: keep it in sl

Him: keep us in sl hun

When a Woman loves a Man

starbride — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 15:04:29 +0000

What all is a woman ready to do for a man she loves… Even enter to a combat roleplay!!! At least if the woman is in love in Second Life and even if she never ever could imagin she would do anything like that!

This is what happend to me… My babi just makes me so happy.. and i’m so glad we ever met.. and i’m so afraid to loose him again.. so i decided to follow him.. to make him more happy.. to be with him..

It all has made me to reflect..

The strange thins is what he told me something sooou unexpected:

Him: i am gonna loosing you

Him: lol

Her: why you’re loosing me??

Him: i see you enjoy

Him: )

Her: i wanted to enter to roleplay anyway

Her: before you came back

Him: dunno.. ppl met other ppl and broke with their own one

Him: ahhh.. that’s sl

Him: i guess

Her: what you mean??

Him: i am affraid i will loose my dearest

Him: )

Him: you will meet other ppl

Her: because you are weak or the dearest is weak

Him: with other fantasies

Her: honey

Her: i meet all the time other ppl….

And when i woke up today in the morning, i was still reflecting on these words in RL.. you know, the moment when you are not really waik, but you don’t sleep neither, when you are able to make the most “sharp” conclusions or decisions someties, or when you feel, yes, this is the true essense of that or that.. this is the right idea…And on this case my conclusion where my mind had reatch in these slightly unconcious situation was that, yes, he might loose me … in roleplay… the real me and the real him.. and not that i meet new ppl… he might loose me, because i don’t feel him any more as REAL. As a real mind behing the screen somewhere in the real world, behind this avie.. I might start to precive him as a caracter… only caracter.. fiction… and yes. When i start feel him only as fiction, or fantasy, i cannot be real neither.. i will be only a carachter aswell, a buntch of pixels.. (as another guy told me once..) And this is my worry… but i love him.. and i move on .. on this path I decided to take for this man.

OMG!!! Love(s) are back!

starbride — Fri, 27 Mar 2009 15:06:46 +0000

Life, also Second Life is full of surprises….

How many months i was waiting my love back…

first one, then other… i thought to have lost them both…i was sure they woun’t come back … it felt really horrible.. i went emotionally so down. It even affected my first life.

This is the point! SL is not that you go in, open your emotional drawer, then play, log off and close your emotions’ drawer again.. they come from SL to follow you in RL! It might be quite harmful i think…

AND now.. both of my loves came back! One day the second… and sooooouuuu big (love you babi!!!) !!! and the very day after, the first… very physical… (LOL) if I may use this word about SL LOL! What a strange situation! Could’t explain it in any other way than just stars!!! Astrology LOL Didn’t know what to do first.. but as i feel that in virtual world the feelings come and go anyway, and i don’t want to get emotionally hurt any more (good exuse maybe LOL) i decided to allow them both back! To my mind!

It’s so strange to be close with a person whome you know long time.. it’s like you trust this person, you feel him or her realy close..and you can talk of everything. And you like hear the sound of soul…. presented with this virtual identity we give to ourselves.. And you can almost feel this other person on your skin…. but hei! this is actually the point! You really never can feel it on your skin… and you want it so much… And this is what we all miss there most! We all, the virtual creatures.. Punch of pixels, as one of my contacts sais!

That’s why i thought, it’s easier not to get hurt if i take back both loves.. donno if it should be considered unmoral?? Maybe? but the funny thing is i really love them both! and it has nothing to do with my RL… at least I think so

New exibition at LX Gallery

starbride — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 16:03:48 +0000

Do you know how it feels if one day you just get a letter from a gallery owner and she or he invites you to exibit some of your artworks in his or her galley… it is what happend to me in the end of January.. Tary Allen just sent me a mail and invited me to LX Gallery LOL and i tell you, it’s such a nice feeling! such a nice feeling indeed

I never thought myself as an artist.. it’s this virtual world which made me somehow… i still feel uncomfy to say it here… but still it makes me to feel as an artist! Second Life has made my creativity to fly! it’s fantasy world.. yes! I agree! But communication between avatars is real! Your virtual friends who come over to the openning are real! Even if the flowers they bring are virtual LOL hahahahaa! Yes, it’s funny!

For now my second exibition in SL is almost over and I even managed to sell the very first time in my entire Second Life.. – and even the First Life hahahhaaa – some of my works!

And here I am to think it over and over whether Sl is good or bad for human mind .. as for me, it has been a pleasant experience.. if to let out some dramas with my virtual lovers but this is not the topic i want to talk today.. some other time…

I’m sad like a street dog

starbride — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 19:03:38 +0000

I don’t know why, but i’m so sad today… i was hunging around in SL in different sims where i expected to find some friends.. or just ppl, to whom to talk.. when you feel you don’t want to be alone.. you know.. and somehow it just happend i didn’t meet anubody.. anybody to talk to.. so i felt like a street dog in snow and cold.. and in the end i just chrashed.. then i thought it just must be a day like this! just one of those days even in SL.. and I also thought, what is what i really REALLY expect from SL… did i ever admitted it to myself.. did i ever ask myself seriously… and I thought, maybe it still is like my old friend who left for RL for ever told me… we are there to look for solemate.. someone whith whom to talk when you feel sad, just sad without any particular reason.. just to talk when you feel like a street dog.. in cold and snow..

New year … all new LOL

starbride — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 11:13:45 +0000

Time is passes soouuu fast.. Maybe even faster than in RL.

So many things have been changing within these weeks.

First of all, the artshow was wonderful! I never ever had a similar experience from RL. People coming ower to your exibit hall and are willing to discuss with you your artwork. Art.. even this word sounds so BIG.. important here. I never was an artist… Yes, I have been drawing my pictures since i was a little girl. Teatchers at school said I had talent. I was just drawing and drawing alone at home… or sometimes when I woke up during the night… But my mom wanted me to become a piono player. I was grownig up hearing my mom exercising Chopin on our pianino at home. SO her dream was I would be a pianist. Sometimes I imagined me behind this huge black shiny piano, playing solo infront of a big orchestra… it was somehow pleasant and solemn moment in my fantasies… But I never became a piono playier. And never went to study drawing or painting..

And now, suddenly, thanks to this SL art exibition experience, I felt again that i want to draw more.. now through SL… Creating my own set, decining the light.. the outfit.. and if ppl come to you saying.. well, I really like your works, I see this and that in your pictures, this is so deeply philosophical approach to the existence of humanity.. etc etc… so many nice words and supporting comments.. from people who are also artists in RL.. Really great feelign!!! Of course there are those who don’t like the way I’m doing art… but this is my vision, my experience and my (second) life LOL If SL offers me this oportunity why not to take it )

Soon my first art show ;)))

starbride — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 18:45:46 +0000

aww…. i’m sooou excited… i’m working on my first ever art exibition in Sl… mmhhh.. actually first ever exibiton in my lifa, as i never had any in RL neither LOL

it’s a lot work actually! Chooseing pix .. then you tryit put in the gallery .. and you see that somehow it dosn’t look well… changing it again… uploading new image… mmhhh..

But first of all it’s fun!!!! And i’m sooou glad Belmakor Pintens invited me to show my works in his “Twilight Gallery” … this very first time in my life ))

The first snow

starbride — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 17:28:44 +0000

The first snow fills your heart always with joy and happiness

Just for fun… )) an unedited snapshot from my backyard… when i came home today all my yard was covered by white fresh snow ) it filled my heart with immense joy which only slow falling of the very first snowflakes can give you )) everything gets covered with white and air is sooou fresh!! and you feel like reborn…
Enjoy it now with my white she-wolf Aeslinn, who’s protecting the magic purifyng Lotus flower which grows in my backyard.. She is huge, but kind and gentle to all good spirits .. well.. actually never understood whether she’s really huge or i’m just small… LOL this is what can happen with perpectives )) … and thanks for my dear friend Lupus for giving snow for Carima residents ))

Secret of the Full Moon

starbride — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 23:17:15 +0000

Did you know what the Full Moon was dreaming about up there

It’s late in the evening both in RL and SL in my sim, where i live. It made me somehow to feel i have to post here one pic.. so far the most popular work i ever have done attleast according to flickr comments ;)

It was nice making this work.. whole experience itself. First choosing the outfit.. trying several stuff from my inventory. Unfortunately I don’t design closes myself, but i’m modifing and combine different stuff others have done. Then i went to the sim.. looked for the ritght position, played like 3 hours with inworld environmental editor .. hahahaa.. means the wonderful tool in Second Life which allows you to change sky, clouds, atmosphere… sun or moon position… water.. fog.. oouuuu many things… great tool to play if you have time. After i made some very little fotoshop editing.. but to be honest i’m really a beginner with PS. Another thing is that i love to experiment with scenery i creat inworld. Photoshop manipulation sometimes seems too easy LOL kills the raw second life beauty …

Chouchou sim is wonderful indeed… just went over in SL to see it and listen to the music… after some time.. Yees, this music there, slow piano .. it makes you feel like you’re floating over the univers.. you feel so happy and light … your spirit flies… now cannot resist, have to post here one from Chouchou too … just imagin the slow piano music..

Hello world! this is me… Salme

starbride — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 18:06:58 +0000

Hello! I’m Salme, i’m born 4/3/2007… and i’m avatar in Second Life..

I love my blue cat eyes

Is this how you’re supposed to start a blog.. mmhh.. donno really, but just felt it’s time to start one so that the wonderful experiences from my virtual world mind trips will not be lost.

English is not my mother toungh in RL.. RL measn Rael Life, as we are used to call it in virtual communities! LOL So i’m sure i’ll write here really bad, terrible english.. please forgive me all those who can say English is their language.. still I prefer to write here the same language I in most cases use in SL.. hehheee.. means Second Life

Well.. what can i say more in my very first writing here.. that i’ve used to be a femail viking warrior for some period.. a Valkyrie.. then discoverd the wonderful world of SL photography and art.. recently have been falling in love.. again would say ) … and here i go.. until the next post!